Italy's Coleen Featured In #MusicLov3rz May Edition!

April 09, 2019

Coleen is actually my first name. That is what they called me in school. Simone is what my family calls me.
Simone was an energetic little girl, very helpful, very eager to please others, very loving… who turned into a shy, anxious, highly strung teenager after years of emotional and physical abuse. Simone was the first of three children. She was sadly the least preferred of the three, the least talented, the least scholastically inclined, the least musically inclined.
Simone was beautiful, but she was made to feel inadequate in every way…She was never good enough. Simone made mistakes...Simone did not always make the right choices.
Simone had very low self esteem.
Simone was extremely empathetic and constantly attracted narcissists…to her detriment. But…God be praised, Simone was a fighter.
She started overcoming little by little. It took her many many years but she started healing.
Simone grew up in a Pentecostal Church, and had a very rigid pentecostal upbringing.
Simone was at odds with the Church because there was this facade where one was too blessed to be stressed…where one could be honest about one’s victories, but not about one’s struggles.
Simone was broken in several places like a delicate piece of pottery that fell onto a hard floor. Sometimes she was convinced that she was healed only to find herself shattered again and again ….BUT…
Quite like the Japanese art ‘Kintsugi’ of fixing and enhancing broken pottery with precious gold, God fixed broken Simone and made her even better, more unique and even more precious than before.
So Simone, shy Simone, hurting Simone, anxious Simone, highly strong Simone, Simone that would get stomach aches, and headaches, and sore throat and fever and tremble at the very thought of having to sing in public… Simone that dreaded walking into a room filled with people, Simone that always felt lonely even though surrounded by people, Simone that had been emotionally and physically abused, Simone that had been bullied and rejected, Simone slowly BECAME COLEEN.

Her FULL STORY is in #MusicLov3rz May!